Christmas is right around the corner Dad and I can't imagine having Christmas Eve without you. I have so many memories of our Christmas's together. I miss taking you shopping this year. That was our special time together for the last 19 years. You always thought of her and bought her something special that day. It must hurt you so to see what she has done to your memories. I am so sorry she has not respected your memory!.
We were so distant but despite it all, I looked up to you. Why is it so hard for a father and son to be friends? I wish I knew. We missed out on a lot as I felt that I was always on the outside looking in. I must say though that I obtained my good work ethic from you and am so thankful. Also, I will always remember those warm summer nights where we went fishing, the horse shows that I tagged along to and the ones that you made me go to to help and parties that mom and yourself had at special times with family when we were growing up. I especially remember the party that you and mom had for me on my sixteenth birthday. That was so special. I hope you know how much I appreciated it. And, I did appreciate you. I just wish I had heard you say just once to me "I Love You". However, I will forgive you for that Dad. I guess I do know that you loved me after all.
Dad is the most wonderful person I have ever known. He was tough on me and to know the truth I deserved it. He made me the person I am today and taught me that being weak was unacceptable. I miss you daddy!